Monday, January 4, 2010

Back to Square One

Well, the writing idea isn't gonna pan out at the moment, maybe later on down the road... we'll see.

And with that I am back right where I started... unemployed, with no serious job experience fighting with 200 other people just for a crappy job at some place like McDonalds. It's rather depressing when you are continually turned down from fast food jobs because they hire someone with MORE EXPERIENCE!!! I mean really, what prior experience would qualify me for a job at Wendy's, Taco Time, or worst of all McDonalds?

But who cares about that, according to my family I should go back to college. What I want to know is, with what money? Are they gonna pay for it? No! Do I qualify for full financial aid? No! Do I even know what interests me anymore that requires school? Nope. Not a clue, and I'm not willing to spend hundreds or even thousands of dollars on school for something I know I can't stand or that won't interest me by the time I graduate.

I'm a girl who likes to build/make things but I can't stand dirt under my nails and I hate working outside. That rules out construction, gardening, or anything else that gets you dirty. I have no interest in math, science, or law. And quite frankly I don't have the patience (read attention span) to keep with the studying.

Opening my own business is out, I don't have the self-discipline or the resources. I don't mind retail, but I hate tedious paperwork, corporate rules/structure, and lack the proper training for management. As stated before I like creating things, but like many creative types the second I actually try to be creative the ideas cease to flow. It has to be spontaneous, and that doesn't work for business.

I have the option of bartending, but not till I turn 21 at the end of next September. I've been learning different drinks the last few weeks and so far I am still interested, so that's a good sign. My jewelry making is slowly starting to make money, no sales online yet but I've got my fingers crossed.

If anybody even reads this and has an idea, feel free to send it my way cause I'm stuck.